I'll Always Be With You

"God gave me you for the ups and downs."

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Tonight I said goodbye to my last college-goer. a sad night indeed. im officially by myself, though im never alone. I had a lovely dinner with my dearest Lauren and her wonderful family, followed by a long hug goodbye. I will miss her more than she will ever know. sigh. 

afterwards i had to take a trip to Jo's for some much needed "me time" and coffee. I've been reminiscing on the littlest, but most meaningful things which probably makes me a little coocoo. and when i say the littlest things, i mean: laughing at the fact that i ate my whip cream off the top of my coffee like caroline and i used to do. and my heart sinking when i got a text that said "im here" which are words i havent heard since caroline left. its simple things like those to make me miss a person so much my body literally aches. Its so strange to feel this range of emotion in one day. and by that i mean, during the day my mind is occupied and im okay, but it seems that as soon as i walk in the door i'm filled with loneliness, and sadness. i can hardly stand to be here anymore. and its even more strange that i now flock to the places we spent our time together: Jo's, the park, the market. maybe my subconscious is hoping that i'll go to these places and one day they will be standing there waiting to greet me. a girl can dream can't she? 

before i drift into sleep, i replay the scenes of summer. and some nights it helps soothe me and sends me to sleep quickly, other times it just prolongs my sadness and makes me restless. but tonight im almost haunted by the sound of Christopher Robin whispering:

"But the most important part is, even if we're apart

I'll always be with you.....

I'll always be with you. Always be with you..."

-CR

Sweet dreams to all,

Em