Gravity

"Gravity is working against me.

Gravity wants to bring me down..."

          To be honest, I've been staring at this page for a good while and I can't seem to find the right words to put down. In recent days things haven't been so bright and sun-shiney. things have been kind of gloomy. the rain could be helping this, but i had to know this was coming. after the mountiain - comes the valley. it never fails. so i knew this was coming, but this valley is one that's going to change my life drastically. Lately, it's been getting harder to get out of the bed in the morning and its hard to fall asleep at night. and im not looking for any sort of new fulfillment either. i really just need to be in the comfort of friends. and ive been avoiding the fact that i miss my friends. ive been avoiding the fact that i miss Brett. it's like part of me wants to miss them, but the other part won't allow me to say i miss them because it shows weakness. something to work on. i just feel beaten down by life. only to get up and get kicked in the stomach. ive lost my desire for life. something else to work on.

this is life lately. gravity brought me down. hard.