Kairos [A Season]

They say your first semester is the hardest. They say your biggest struggle is time management. They say that college is where you "find yourself." All of my life, I found that I didn't match up to the status quo, or rather I never believed in it. I considered myself a part of the outcrowd and I liked that. I never met expectations and I am a firm believer in the element of surprise. All saying: I swim against the current. Well, in the here and now, I think I am agreeing with what they say for the first time in my life. agreeing is different than accepting, though. While I agree, I choose not to accept. I choose to take action. So that leaves me with today, a Sunday.

I have been in this new city for a week. Friends and I joke about how it feels like it's been a month. Alas, I am beginning to feel this town call my name and in return I call out to it, "home." As with any week in a new city, I have learned the good and bad and the down right ugly. I have experienced joy and sorrow. And that leaves me with today, a Sunday. 

In the multitude of time spent in class, I have begun to learn how to manage my time. and because of all the "free" time I have or lack there of, I am learning to lean on the Father. for strength, motivation, inspiration, comfort, protection, and truth. He tells me that this semester does't have to be the hardest. He says that it will be challenging, yes, but not the hardest. well isn't that something? even God is stepping out from the status quo, even the highest of the high is swimming against the grain. Now that is not to elevate myself, but to elevate HIM. 

So what does all of this have to do with the before-mentioned word? well I am glad you asked. ALL of these things have to do with that word. K-A-I-R-O-S. say it. again and again. don't worry about defining it. I already did that for you. chew on it for a while. close this page. think about what it means. and come back to it. It's deeper than you think. because im sure your first thought is carpe diem: seize the day. while that is important, thats not what im getting at here. Kairos is single moment in time that deserves action. It is a fixed point in which God says "im going to be here." As cliche as it sounds, I am entering a season of Kairos. a time where I choose to be present. I choose to act. I choose to lean on the Father. it's time in my story where I make decisions, or rather, I become tuned to the decisions of the Divine Creator.  And that will leave me with days like today, a Sunday. 

Today is not just any Sunday. today is a day filled with rest, it is the sabbath after all. it's filled with community. and JOY. and productivity. a day of feeling so close to heaven that I could stick my tongue out and taste it. of hearing the Lord laugh and I mean really laugh. I think this season will be one of struggle, I cannot be one of naivety. but I will choose to be present when God shows up. I think it's gonna be a season of Kairos, of heart flips, of walking in freedom. I do not know what lies ahead on the road that God is taking me on in this season. but that's okay, because I am, afterall, a firm believer in the element of surprise.