As always, i spent the night skyping my dear friend Caroline and scrolling through the Africa pictures for the millionth time. two things i miss so much. When we got back from our Maine mission trip, we always said we missed the place a lot. this missing feeling I have now does not compare to that in the slightest. it is far greater. it's the kind of missing that physically hurts. then i came across this picture:
I thought back to the day we left Come Back Mission.
I remember every detail like it was yesterday.Towards the end of the day, I remember waiting to load up. Imani, Andrew, and I sat on the side of the road (right where this picture was taken) & we talked about what the trip ment for us and our futures. we shared what we wanted to do with our lives. truth is, i still dont know what is i want to do with my life and i havent known since that day. Then, mid-conversation, everyone came out and said it was time to go. Bernie held out a hand to help me up and she pulled me into a hug. I thought I could hold it together, until Bernie whispered in my ear, "I love you, my sister. I will always be praying for you. I will never forget you. you are strong." I then began to cry. and as the bus pulled away, I buried my head into Caroline's arms and cried myself to sleep.
Sometimes we miss people, but no one ever said this life would be easy. Sometimes you can't be with the ones you love physically, but they will always, Always, be in your heart. On days like today, I miss Bernie so much it hurts. On days like today, I miss having Caroline here with me to the point where i want to stay in bed for weekd. but life goes on. we build and we break everyday. and soon enough the sun will come and the light will shine again.
Here's to the valleys that make the mountains so glorious.
Hallelujah, Amen.
the people i love on a regular basis:
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