Oh Captain, My Captain.

"I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of God in the land of the Living."

As always, I try to be honest with the way things are in my life so as not to sugar coat anything. I don't want people to take a glimpse into my life and write off these stories because my life seems picture perfect over a dull computer screen. but instead I want to be able to give people a chance to say wow yeah I feel like that too. and then for them to see that Jesus is all we ever need him to be in those situations.

Lately, I have needed Him to be my Captain. A very real feeling for me these past weeks is apprehension about going back to school. The way I explained it to a friend was that "it wasn't going to be like camp." So I began to explore my options - I cried out for God to tell me where I needed to be this semester - and eventually I rested in going back to Tennessee with the plan that things must be different. As I talk with different people before I head back tomorrow everyone's question is the same: are you ready to go back to school? I think my very unpacked room kind of speaks for itself on that one.

but I got to thinking about people in scripture who, like me, had to stare the unknown in the face and confidently walk into it: Abraham, Moses, David, Ruth, Paul, and Peter. Sweetly, I remember the theme of a camp we had come to NF this summer. Without Borders. Where is God calling you to get out of the boat and walk to Him? Well shoot. He's calling me here in this moment. This is my oceans moment: going into a place where my feet may fail but His grace won't. and well, I've never had to trust Him this much before (and that goes for lots of areas in my life). I don't quite know what will happen this next year. I don't know where God will lead me or who He will lead me to. But I know for a fact that He is enough and because He is enough - I too am Enough. So when the storms roll, I will stand in the rain and shout for God because He is big enough to calm it. I will stare grace in the face and walk confidently to Jesus. I will trust Him and I will rest. 

Tonight He is my compass, my anchor, and my captain. and because of that I can rest. My hope is that if you feel the pangs of going back to school soon you know that I understand the way you feel and you hold onto Jesus knowing that He is everything you need Him to be: Enough.


Would you join me in tis journey through the unknown? After all, these waters aren't meant to be navigated alone.

Em