Caffeinated Connections

     “How we need another soul to cling to. 

To rest and trust; to give your soul in confidence. 

I need this, I need someone to pour myself into.”

Sylvia Plath

       Tonight, I have deleted this post more times than I care to tell. I have been racking my brain for something interesting to share with you people (if there are any people who actually read this). At first, I wrote on how optimistic I have been lately. hip hip hooray for me. Then, I was going to give some marvelous details about tomorrow's big adventure, which you will hear about tomorrow. and then... it hit me. okay, it didn't really hit me, it more-or-less "rang". my cellphone, that is. A very good friend of mine, Alex, agreed to meet me for coffee. He is a man of courage, strength, intelligence, and also has a way with children that melts your heart. I have missed him more than he knows. but most importantly, he is apart of my Africa team. and if you have had the chance to read my previous posts, you understand why my Africa team members mean so much to me. We started with light things like school, church, and how times have changed. but the topic I was most anxious to discuss was where we stand with everything. and by everything, I mean the mess we call post-Africa. If you are unaware of what post-africa is or means, feel free to ask me about it sometime, but for time's sake, I will refer to it as so. It is interesting to hear everyone's take on where they stand with all of that. but it was just nice to have someone who understands where I'm coming from and doesn't shove opinions unto me like so many people try and do. Connections like these are the recipe for healing. Even if a conclusion or a certain answer doesn't come from these talks, a connection with someone who knows your soul is something that I will always be grateful for. It is a feeling that cannot be explained. As I've said before, some things cannot be given over to the limitations of words, and some stories are not meant to be written down, but rather expressed in person or even in an understood feeling. 

       Unfortunately, the window of opportunity for these talks is closing and soon everyone will be returning to school. It is my hope, that we stay positive through all of this. but I have some sort of gut feeling that the new year may bring some sort of clarity, even if it is small. As always, I continue to pray that I will be sent back to my family in ZA or I figure out what this life has to offer me. and I'm excited to find out what the future holds. As of right now, I'm just trying to be the best version of myself I can be. and for now that's good enough for me.

So here's to the next step. 

Here's to bonds that mean more than gold. 

and Here's to open doors that give little bits of clarity along the way. 

Shosholoza (keep moving forward)

-Em

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