"'Cause I Need More Time"

"Cause I need more time. 

just a few more months and Ill be fine. 

so say what's on your mind..."

In light of all the hustle and bustle this week. i felt i needed to take some time and write. to clear my head and get down everything inside. so here's what i've come up with to go along with everything happening in the life of Em.

this one's for you.

because sometimes, I just need a little bit more time.

I am counting down the days. We are both counting down the days. I leave for a job that everyone says is fit just for me. You leave to go exploring and learning in a new country. We have been apart for more days than I like to count, but have talked every day since your depart. to give that up in 2 weeks time is a battle i will lose. but keep dearly in my heart. i wish to spend all the days with you till then. but there are not enough hours in the day, or days in the weeks. too many things to study. too many meals to eat. We catch each other for coffee or homework. just an hour or two a day. enough to smile, talk, and then be on our way. But my heart is restless. it ticks like the clock in my grandmother's house. chiming every time we are together. though it will cease to chime in 2 weeks time. I think my head is misaligned. im fumbling over laptops, and study guides. just wishing i could buy some time. just wishing to sit and rest. to have no where to go, no where to be. just sit and pass the time with you. you with me. friday comes too soon. I'll hug you for a long time and probably cry a little too. You'll wave goodbye in your car and say, "i'll see you so soon." i will whisper the words i have always said, "i love you to the moon." off to bigger and better things we go. I will load my truck and head for the mountains as you board the plane abroad. traveling in different directions & far from the place we both call home. and when i reach the mountains and say a prayer for your safety, i will remember the words you have always said to me:

"May the road rise to meet you.

 may the wind be always at your back.

 may the sun shine warm upon your face, 

and rains fall soft upon your fields. 

and until we meet again, 

may God hold you in the palm of his hand."

-em