Fullness

{Thankful for evening sunsets after a day full of clouds}

Like the fullness of the midnight moon

plain and simple

i love you

I thought for a long time that I knew who I was. I was pretty confident in where I was headed. I'm learning that I didn't really know who I was at all. In fact, I think I know less about myself now than I ever have before. and If I can confess: I think it was all a facade. I was masking insecurity and fear trying to build myself up. That doesn't feel very good to say, but I've been told there is freedom in letting those words go. 

and it's true, there is freedom. both in accepting who you are and what you're not. finding your limitations can be scary, but it's the place God wants to enter into the most and show you grace, love, and mercy. Remember the verse: His power is made perfect in our weakness. So I'm considering this a joy that my many weaknesses takes a great amount of His power to be anything good. 

It's not just that God is most powerful when we are weakest that overwhelms me, it's the fact that in Him and with Him we are full. both in the literal and metaphorical way, we are full. He provides all that we need when we put our trust in Him and we're even able to do the things he did while on Earth because his spirit is inside us. How often do we do that, though? I'll be the first one to tell you that I don't do it much. I may trust him a little more now than I used to, but using my gifts isn't in the forefront of my brain. But maybe it should be. 

As a freshman in college, I live a very hectic lifestyle. I am really involved and constantly busy and while I love that, I am usually running on empty. I don't much like that. especially when God tells me I'm complete in him. I don't have to do anything more or be anything more. I'm full of Him. So how do you live that out? 

Well I'm no guru on time-management or on "successfully walking out God's truth" but maybe it's as simple as asking God to grow that part of you. Maybe it's as easy as remembering your gifts and using them. or just taking time to be still and silent and reminding yourself that you are complete in Him. When I'm able to do those things, it seems like worries and hurts dissolve. and I'm left with the sunset you see above and a heart full of thanks. it makes those limitations a little easier to swallow and the facade a little easier to put aside. 

He loves you. and you are complete in Him. You are full of Him, so don't worry about how things will happen. Have a little faith in the one who created you. 

So here's to rest, to sunsets over bridges, and to fullness, may you sit in the hope of being complete in Him this week. 

Em