Come on in. Take a seat. You're welcome here today. There's no pressure to be perfect here. I'll pour you some tea, or make you some coffee. Whatever you like. Leave your shoes at the door, grab a blanket, and join me on my couch.
I sat there on the sidewalk with my boots and the leaves and sighed a tired sigh that 20-somethings know too well. Eyes dimly open and my mind on a permanent strike, my body was refusing to output or input any new stimuli. I wonder to myself: Will the end come? Will I ever not be tired? Will grades define who i am? I stand up and keeping walking. I tell myself with passion that those questions are lies and that is not what I know in my heart of hearts. I begin to recite all I know. Much like Asaph in psalm 77. That's where I found my heart today.
"Then I thought: to this I will appeal: the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand. I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. " (versus 10&11)
What is it that your mind flips back to? Mine goes to Haiti. I remember the little boy that was healed. I remember the children we prayed for and how on our annual return they were prospering. I remember the thunderstorm that was caused by our roof-worship. I go back to the things that led me to UT and how even in the darkest times, he led me to his glory. I have story after story of how God has shown up, come through, made new and I am compelled to believe that He will not fail me this time. I have to know in my heart of hearts that He is in all ways good.
Some ask me how I can believe that when I see so much destruction happening here on earth. and to them I say, there is too much evidence of Him that I am incapable of walking away from this notion of his goodness. When you have encountered Him in the ways that I have you cannot turn away, you cannot sit down on the sidewalk and believe the lies that are in front of you. Instead, you get up and you walk. You remind yourself of the miracles of old. You hold your head up and you know that "He is with you always- to the very end of the age" Finally, you walk with confidence in your creator to be immeasurably more and to show up more than you thought in your life. You walk knowing that Joy is yours for the taking because of His love for us.
"Then I thought: to this I will appeal: the years when the Most High stretched out his right hand. I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago. " (versus 10&11)
What is it that your mind flips back to? Mine goes to Haiti. I remember the little boy that was healed. I remember the children we prayed for and how on our annual return they were prospering. I remember the thunderstorm that was caused by our roof-worship. I go back to the things that led me to UT and how even in the darkest times, he led me to his glory. I have story after story of how God has shown up, come through, made new and I am compelled to believe that He will not fail me this time. I have to know in my heart of hearts that He is in all ways good.
Some ask me how I can believe that when I see so much destruction happening here on earth. and to them I say, there is too much evidence of Him that I am incapable of walking away from this notion of his goodness. When you have encountered Him in the ways that I have you cannot turn away, you cannot sit down on the sidewalk and believe the lies that are in front of you. Instead, you get up and you walk. You remind yourself of the miracles of old. You hold your head up and you know that "He is with you always- to the very end of the age" Finally, you walk with confidence in your creator to be immeasurably more and to show up more than you thought in your life. You walk knowing that Joy is yours for the taking because of His love for us.
Do not fear the night, for his Joy comes with the morning. Stay as long as you need to. I'll be here for a while. And we can sit in this together until we both can feel his grace.
Shosholoza
EM
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